Wednesday, September 1, 2010

My Name is Amber and I'm not Disappointed

Several of you have expressed a bit of concern for me because I came in dead last in our first competition. Don't be. I was scared to death because I had never swapped phone numbers with a guy, at least not like that. I fooled over a dozen guys in close proximity. It went very well. To top it off the girls screwed up and the penalty for coming in last actually was less the worse I did so I only had to call 4 boys. 2 of them have already called me back.

There's a lot going on here. I will be attending two classes as Amber. The problem is one of them is a 50 minute class on Monday Wednesday and Friday and the other is a Tuesday and Thursday 75 minute class. That means everyday, I need to do some quick changing.

Somebody asked what I meant by the difference between dating Ms. Susan and being her sissy. Quite simply, when we were dating it was an equal relationship and if anything as a guy, I probably called most of the shots. If I found a movie stupid, on went the ball game. Now, I really don't have a say in anything except what Ms. Susan will allow me. Sometimes, she even will pick a movie or a restaurant or a dress for me to wear specifically because she knows my reaction and she wants to remind me who the boss is.


  1. Amber,

    I think the photo you posted is apropos of your situation right now: reflective, wondering about the choices you have made. You accepted your current station as Ms Susan's sissy in order to have the chance to stay with her. By all appearance, she may very well be worth it, though I recognize it's a rather extreme circumstance she demands of you. And unlike me, you don't have any underlying desire to be feminized.

    I think it's clear that Ms Susan will wield the upper hand in your relationship, as long as it lasts and wherever it leads. It goes without saying that you are in a female dominant relationship. The question is whether Ms Susan's exercise of her authority is loving and considerate, or has some other less savory form. If she seems a bit inconsiderate right now, you might recall that she has reason to feel hurt. But to find out how it will really evolve, I think you will have to wholeheartedly submit to her authority. A dominant woman like her will know the depth of your commitment instinctively (as, indeed, women generally know so much about us instinctively). I bet if you would give her your wholehearted submission, she would in turn take your interests and desires into consideration. But she will likely always be quick to assert her authority if you challenge it, or even if you just become complacent. Ultimately, it will be up to you to decide if this is your path to happiness.

    Wishing you well,


  2. Wouldn’t it be easier for you to attend all classes as Amber?

  3. Do you think that any of the boys will ask you out? Are they cute? Will Ms.Susan allow you to accept?

  4. Have you enjoyed flirting with guys and having their attention? I know I feel amazing as a sissy when a guy flirts with me and gives me a look like he would love to spend "quality time" with me.


  5. I just wanted to congrats on getting as many numbers as you did. It has to take a lot of balls (sorry) to be dressed as a girl and asking guys for their phone numbers. So Great Job! Ok, so 2 have called you back, how did that go? Have you seen them again? Talked to them on the phone some more? And how is class as a girl? Lgb